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Poker Face Sky

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No storm today. Rain and a trudge around some local damage. In the lanes potholes are ground deeper by a swill of loose stone. The fat trunked ash is conveniently falling twig by twig. Next door fares a leaky front room and a greenhouse left more frame than glass. We lean over the fence, observe the wrecked reflective pieces. Elsewhere; we note; other people are prising trees out of roofs: evacuated: more, much more is forecast: weather talk stumbles out of the anodyne zone into an apocalypse. The sky lies on the horizon, innocuous grey, keeps us guessing.

Whale Of A Night

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~ The road is so wet; a long dark throat of it One slit-eye moon rolls Night arches by: note the languorous float of it ~ Like a whale, I think: in the chill deep it lives Calm or storm: comfortable, part of the abyss ~

Over Carzantic

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Something under the ground Outside the converted chapel Creeps up ominous A red bloom spreads On the gravel, looks murderous It's the ruddy earth, or the terracotta brick Or we are mistaken And things are as unseemly as they seem… In the morning sky Pink and dark Clouds bloom Over Carzantic: storm roses.

Country Hotel

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The holiday voucher is handed over at reception. Tea and scones are available. In the room a fine tassel hangs from a wardrobe key. Complimentary sherry in cut glass. Sash windows overlook carved owls, flagstones, lawn, curls of distant cloud. A walk next: an exploration of Brent Knoll's steep gradient. Curiosity is a great propellant. The sky gods: feisty, buffeting, sending footprints off at quirked angles. At the summit are craters, a grassed over moon surface. A 360 view spins, right to left, left to right, until it gets dizzy. Path is a slipway of mud and water. A brook bubbles up and all the way back down to earth and a warm country hotel. There is chintzy print and lampshades strung with beads. Yes, lampshades wearing jewellery: seven courses on the taster menu; liberal use of balsamic: merlot unbottled, lemon cleansed palates, fat bottomed brandy glass, cutlery shining in low light.

The Greenwood Horse

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In a western land far from China, the New Lunar Year starts with the cold element of water: it comes in the form of rain. A writer sits at her desk that is also the dining table and a sometimes home for itinerant objects. She favours the chair that faces the room's double windows; admires the view of clustered plant pots and washing draped for drying, the toys left out and a dog changing sleep positions on the leather shine of the sofa. Rain dots and stripes the outer panes, opaques the horizon. Any new start provokes future thoughts; she thinks; and beyond the fascination of the weather her thoughts wander. Is there a perceivable energy of time patterns? This year represented by a horse, by the element of wood, a masculine force, the colour green: what comes next? Uncertainty is essential: it is the medium of faith. But what does come next? She thinks of horseshoes printed in mud: when they change direction it is done in a curve; where the head points the hooves follow,

Cephalopod Coffeehouse Review

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Every month I attempt to remember to join in with other bloggers posting up book reviews. It also helps me to remember to keep making time to read: if you want to write then reading is essential!  The Island, Victoria Hislop, Headline Book Publishing http://www.amazon.co.uk/Island-Victoria-Hislop/dp/0755309510 This book was given to me by a friend who had inadvertently ended up with two copies. It came with a shrug. I soon picked up why. The story is well researched, well intentioned, the writing isn't what I would identify as bad, exactly. I feel like a heel for pointing this out, actually, because a story with a kind heart is a good thing: but there is far too much tell and not enough show. I like to work things out for myself. Show me a scene, I'll know if people are happy or sad or complicated. I'd rather make up my own mind, it makes me more involved, and the further into the story I go the more this applies. For example, if on page 206 I need to be t

The Book From Singapore

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Post arrives from far away. A gift. 182 similes printed; thumbed, skim read, an embraceable greed: desirous to learn. One page found marked by a folded corner. Opened, this page speaks of uncertainty. Uncertainty in all things: as the base nature of things. A tree grows, it says; and how to tell which flowers will blow away and which will bloom to fruit? Without uncertainty, the joy is less; the petals' value fixed. Without uncertainty, no quest: it makes a futility of any bravery test. Much to mull over as the sleep coffee balance is recalibrated.

Two Horses And A Punch Line

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Three kilometres are wandered with a toddler shoulder perched. The path rings half way on the hillside: a view of roots elbowing through soft rock and on the other side, tree tops. She wants to see a horse, the child says, pulling up the earflap on a woollen hat to share a dream. Like magic then two horses round the stony corner, the wind curls their tails as they pass. Pin drops of rain press the walk on, on through the car park out to the café. A pasty is the object sought, this time. There's none: there's a sausage roll. Hot in a paper bag? Later she tells her Grandad: there was no pasty but there was sausage rolls! Like a good punch line. Crumbs down her jumper. Her Grandma smiles and raids the fridge. (Three horses passing on a sunnier day.)

Further Adventures At Dead Tree Field

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More boot under the mud than over it. The mud is possessive. A limb could easily pull loose from such a gripped piece of footwear. Mud also steals socks. Patience and years of experience are harnessed: a barely perceptible wiggle releases boot and foot together. This repeats over several steps. At ankle deep the effort is less. A grin appears. Nearly stuck. Nearly slipped. Better to be mud slapped than the one who walks past the open gate uncurious. Dog throws herself with the proper abandon and sometimes appears as a head sticking up from the hedge. The sky squeezes out more rain, and more. And what do badgers do for drainage? Gaping in the reddish earth these holes evoke cold versions of the Cu Chi tunnel entrances: are they for badgers, then, or do small people live here? Or something humanoid: trollish or faeriefied? One should not assume to know, of course, lest the world become bereft of surprise.

Second Helping

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Wind sings and anything loose in the cut hedges keeps time. Ferns dance at the edge of the quarry pool. Wind fingers trail water, fuzzle reflected trees. Over the river the shelter in the cow field slams a loose roof panel. In the lane a young fox watches; stolid, legs planted, fur thickly smooth, eyes bright: remembers itself, flees sheepish through stubby thorns. Dog runs, returns, sparkling, dripping mud. The fat trunked ash lets the wind loosen dead wood to drop later, unexpected. After the walk the interruptions parcel up: Mum, I need a- it's okay I got one! Where's the internet gone? Can we have a lift? Not yet- oh, never mind. This pasta is delicious! Yay, internet! Parcel: each one takes space and time, is neither entirely unexpected nor a surprise. Simultaneous: tap type check add tweak. Soup By Volume Two pours out. Not dissimilar to the first, of course. But every day has its own flavour. Today is basil, garlic, red wine. Perhaps a h

Exciting Times Lie Ahead

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Little Granddaughter steps out of the bank queue, confidently presses code buttons on the cash point loading door. Eyebrows raise, concerned. I'm not sure what she expected but she tells me it's broken. 'Wass a gonna do?' She shrugs off the problem to the staff. Grab a shiny red wrapped fortune cookie from a counter display is wass a Nam-ma is gonna do: distract. Here, I say, hold this. She decides it will be best if clipped safe in my bag; plays with the satchel clasps and forgets the infant bank heisting. 'Ahh,' say the staff, quite smitten. (Maybe we should try a few more number combinations next time…) Back at the car she sighs in her seat and says she's not tired. She rubs her eyes, makes grumbly noises. 'Hey, I know what we forgot!' I open the cookie wrapper, crack the honey coloured crescent: read. -Ah. I knew that.

Open Gate At Dead Tree Field

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Shy spears of snowdrop have been unhidden by the hedge cutting. Halfway through its tenure, winter is wished away. A blue sky is a portentous sky.  A gate that always stands shut; to the field where the dead trees have held long fascination; is open. An open gate is an auguring gate. Here the hoof prints of the jostling bullocks are left, pressed in the soft ground. Here is the rubbed wood of their comfortable scratching: above the knotted roots of the larger trunk, serpentine, vascular. Outlines stark and precise, colours patched, reptilian, like shedding skin, the two trunks stand, faintly lean in: communicative, embracing. Under tender earth the roots are settled, connecting without need. These trees have outgrown leaf bearing. Pared branches unshielded in all the changes of days. Around them the hoof prints are trod and trod, the cud chewed up and forgotten.

Salvage Yard

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Other people's rubbish is made of clues. Like at the shops, when you judge a person by the things that are piled on the counter or (best for spying) rolling down a conveyor belt towards bored check out personnel. (This natural nosiness once prompted what became known as the Rude Shopping Game. Simply fill your basket with bizarre items; for example, plastic handcuffs, a toy mouse, a tube of squeezy cheese and a bobble hat. The idea being to make the check out more fun, give a dull day a talking point.) Today's recycling mission is old leaflets, cardboard and a ripped bean bag that the rabbit once soiled. Other people drop garden waste, some bagged up landfill. How dull. Perhaps the bags contain nefarious items? In the wood skip a garden bench nests in splintered plank ends. Who throws a bench away? The garden waste people? Are they outdoor redecorators? The land fillers? They are smiling and it's horribly cold.

Night Road Home

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The night and the road are the same shade. There's no demarcation but the car tyres keep to earth. An ice mist breathes on anything stationary. The car tyres roll steady to the door of the warmed cottage. Coals orange as a low sun behind the door of the little Rayburn stove. Boys on the sofa, slouchy, watching a laptop because the television broke. But when they demonstrate the screen goes on and the volume works this time. -Pah! In a pan on the electric hob, leftovers fuse with added chilli. A sip of cold coffee waits in a cup and a dog dreams in her basket. Good news pings on a phone: a boy baby, they haven't settled on a name.

Lucky Plastic Cat

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The blinds had not been dropped last night, in the living room. The morning was free to enter in, stripe the room in light. At the window Maneki Neko sits, sunrise facing, beckoning in, her plastic-cat eyes slinky and unblinking. Maybe like my camera she sees the distance as a bloom of searing white. Maybe like me she sees unleafed trees; heavy trunks, intricate twigs; against silvery river mist; clouds painterly pink, fiery orange, over a hill; a midnight green hill; a landscape in monochrome and colour. Maybe her sight is no more than the work of the solar powered sensor: maybe even that is imaginary, merely fancy. But I like the way her arm clicks, her purposeful composure. And in view of this, sat at the table where coffee steams from a regal mug, I grant her perfect vision.

Cinnamon Smoke

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Sat on the mismatched dark wood dining chair: look to an unseen distance: stare, calm, wait for words that are looking for somewhere, for what is a word that is never spoken? An absence, a nothing, unplaced. A scented candle in a tumbler on the mantelpiece: a thing specific. Waxy sputter, the last dance of a fat low flame, catches the reflective curve of glass, softer and softer as it shrinks; blue glimmer, red bud, glowing memento, dark wick, captured soot. Like any candle might, recognisable. This one leaves cinnamon smoke.

Friday Night

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Heavy eyed, work done. Pages of the novel stack up. The washing up, ignored. Gold plates cake crumbed. Coffee cups everywhere. Clothes are washed, their colours part of the changing design scape we have here. Darkish colours today. A rack of socks in variant textures. The fireplace houses burnt out tea lights. One day we'll take out the pillow that blocks the chimney draft. Toast marshmallows on modest flames. We'll use the barbeque forks or improvise with twigs. Listen to vinyl, to old record hiss. Admire the shadows of the avocado leaves, the poke of ginger shoot, the spiking aloe, the umbrella geranium. We're not sure if the pineapple will survive, but it's always worth a try. Arms on the wooden artist's model are open wide, embracing. It has a shadow that does the same .

A Breakfast Vignette

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It was Thursday so I had breakfast with a lion. 'MMM. Nuh one nee'bix please,' the lion said, examining a smudge on its polka dot tights. 'Do lions eat Weetabix?' By which I meant- are you sure you're a lion? This prompted head scratching and a rumpled brow: whereupon the lion became a wolf, a howling wolf, who taught us all to howl. (With a full moon scheduled this made so much more sense.) A wolf does like a Weetabix, it seems; and making spiders from shadows and baking cakes. We made the first cake out of a magnetic construction kit. Delicious!

Fiction From Fact

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Above the lights of city roads, the moon is close to full. Artifice draws the eye first: the impersonal, the alienation; city clichés: things expected. A view from a car, too, a further segregation. Other traffic is little more than white noise, a concentrated, constant background. Tableaux of reality flit by: outside a bar a man gestures come in, another man raises his hand, nods his head. They wear similar coats. In the chip shop a girl leans over the counter to hand a child some greasy food. Little hands reach up, fingers splayed wide. Cashiers in the supermarket uncover a misdemeanour. It makes one of them cross, and one of them shrugs off the care, and the others say it is wrong but they can see how it happened. The song of their voices is recognisably human over the drone of air conditioning. Strips of light overhead, like a surgical theatre, like a laboratory. The numb dread that no one observing will care for a stray from elsewhere. Though what will happen? Look at

View From The Dung Heap

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This morning's view from the dung heap It is not about the gold rush, the future glimmer, the when or the if. That's a dream only. Sometimes you might go chasing after a lure when all you love and need isn't perceived exactly where you are. Oh my honeyed sweets! You chase and chase that mirage till you get close, And it's not what you thought Or you get too tired. I get tired to watch it, but the rest of my view from this fecund dung heap Is clear. Funny isn't it? Easier to be didactic In this erratic form of verse. I would like to build a house Bursting with viriditas Flame heated It's fine to have an intention But not to be distracted: so here we are Learning how to propagate And cooking on bonfires And opening our palms to the heat of the Prosperous fire. Angry Birds, early version Shadow tortoise eats shadow leaf.