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Open House

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The lane hedges are smartly cut: they have a sour-fresh smell. On our walk, the reprieve of cool wind is brief. Heat sticks. Cloud builds. Stand a while by the cut-open house because such a place reeks of fascination. See the rose print curtains; drawn open for a morning that lingers in their poignant witness; and the bared stairs where feet changed direction when they did remember what they were going to do after all. Why is memory so easily lost and found in a stairwell? Footings for more space are dug: those old memories will tumble down, be mixed in. Even when the specifics are gone, the vestiges of history hold; lightly haunt. The field is a wider space, where we can open our arms to catch spouts of wind. The crumbled barn has no doors but its spaces are like eyes: you can look through them, view the world as the barn views it. This evening rain comes. Tepid drops on warm tarmac; they make a low mist, they sparkle in headlights. Imagine tho

Wallpaper Of The Gods

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Sleep was so deep that dreams could not be fished. A sense of dreaming lingers though. A bowl of breakfast poured. A door opened. No sign of a storm in the night. The ground is dry, things are where we left them. The sky is puff and pearl on blue: that background cornflower colour so popular on postcards. Flock wallpaper of the gods. Lazy smile. I'm outside. It's my wallpaper too. Clouds last all day, into the decorous drama of night.

Pre Storm

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Beyond this horizon a distant strum: we are confident of a storm. Feel the heat caught in cotton print, as the washing is gathered in. Birds are perched, noisy in a ruffled hedge. Brief relief: cool zephyr smoothing over stifled skin. One t-shirt left on the line, just to watch it dance. Car windows wound up, garden furniture herded to sheltered spots, blankets bundled indoors. Watch, and wait.

Things To Tell An Empty Chair

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Little Granddaughter scoops, slops, pats, makes a cake of wet sand. She sings Happy Birthday, leans in to blow out an imagined candle, knees bent and hands splayed. Boy is in the ocean, recording the low roll of surf over a smooth rock. Dog fetches the ball, this is important work. Slaves to our art, each of us. It is good to break for lunch. We sit on a blanket with pasties of a dangerous heat. Eventually we get to eat them. *** Granma Grace is up and dressed in the hospital ward. Cool air blows and the nurse brings ice for her water glass. 'I thought that was it for me,' she says. 'But I've got more Great Grandchildren to meet, it wasn't my time yet.' We speak of getting a new chair, for when she is back at home, and getting rid of the little sofa, which is comfortable but too low to get out of with ease. She will keep the chair that Grandad Gordan once favoured. She talks to it, she tells us, imagines him there, rubbing his

Shirt Tales

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Linen on the line is pegged. These trousers have stood under speedy equatorial sunsets. Here, spider-spun cotton: a shirt that has floated in the Bay of Bengal: bought on the streets of Malapuram. It flails now in the heated howl that blasts also through the house and slams a door and all of it evokes a beach under the brew of a tropic storm. Every piece of washing hung gets an extra peg, and is left to dervish-dance. The wind is a puppeteer: garments, like puppets, have a history, a seeming life. We calculate it will be July 20th 2015 by the time we've viewed ALL of Boy's India adventure photos :-) 

Mermaid Delirious

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Heat: a plethora of drowsy and a dearth of sleep. Where dreams can't form, there flourishes reverie. This I like about heat. Despite our amateurish ventures into grooming, Dog is heavy coated, and that is why we leave the steamy lanes for the cool and wakeful woods. No grass scorch here, only the bone dry mysteries of some dead branches amongst fountains of green leaf, the fresh arch of ground cover ferns. Oh, look, an open gate: and that is why we edge the waving crop field. Tall grasses keep our feet cool, the rest is hot idyll. In the cattle field the beasts sprawl. We take the first descent to the river. Things seem to spring to being, most dreamlike: the trees, the gaping gate, the tree root steps down to the water. Unplanned and obvious. I think of last night, after work: we stopped on a cliff top, watched the sun set into low cloud, the sea was gentle, it sounded like breathing. Tell me something I asked: and the sea whispered: Mermaids exist. You are one

Spontaneous Evaporation

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Roused reluctant by the alarm I set; am dressed before any real wakefulness arrives. Here I am on the doorstep and seem prepared, so Dog and I walk the lanes before it gets too hot. Over the river a tube of mist thickly sits: I wonder if the river itself is all mist. I wonder what the fish do about that. Habit kicks into a run halfway round. Dog has that roll to her eye that says she will oblige even though you are clearly wrong. Perspiration reaches saturation point. Stop running, before I turn to mist.

The Meaning Of Herons

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Maybe the heat simmered up, steamed away a peaceful night. I'm not the only one to wake ill at ease. My uncertainty, I think, originates in economics, though true lines of feeling are easily blurred. There is a need for some uncertainty in life, lest one grow a skin too smug and die of it. When the balance has over-tipped; either way; to right this: a two pronged attack. Firstly, make a list. Done: tick. Secondly, stand in a river. My old trainers are now my river shoes. Adidas , they are. No name on the swimsuit. Clothes in a backpack wait on a rock ledge. Dog leaps into the water, agitates mud, I can't see where to tread at all. A walk of faith: waist deep, hands trailing under the reflective surface, twitching at the sudden touch of weed, the unnerving quality of cold gloop. 'Okay, river,' the confession begins. 'I come to seek balance and peace and acknowledge that this is something only I can find for myself, within myself, so I don't kn

Dog Gets Better

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Dog's nose is dry as the dust laden lanes, so we drive to the river path. Common sense also chooses wading over walking, so at the river we are straight in, sliding on rocks till we're swim-deep, swimming till knees knock on rocks. Dog tacks from bank to bank, tail wagging like a loose rudder. We ogle the writhe and wring of tree roots, the sense of serpentine motion. We cheer when jumping fish full breech. All the way to the bay of the Oak Dragon these adventurers press, and each jumps twice from his whiskery nose. Each jump has a wooden nod. Even Dog clambers on the arched oak back and makes her own splash. Back at home, Cat's food bowl mysteriously empties. Dog feigns a modicum of surprise, then sleeps in the shade of the little fir tree.

Beach Shop Dreaming

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Blue sky stretches over the whole weekend and shows no signs of shrinkage. Some people say it's too hot, they are instantly harangued: have they forgotten so soon all the weary intolerance of grey skies? Other people recall The Last Great Summer, 1976: lotus eating and lounging and even beige was a bright colour back then. We never wore shoes from March to November, only sand on our feet. We never ate any food except ice pops. We remember this, lying in the shade at Bluebell Barns, watching banana tree leaves waft. We all have sunglasses on. Two empty bottles of dandelion muscatel cast shadows in the kitchen, which we can't see from this angle but our fuzzy heads hold the image. And the Prosecco bottles, and the red wine. I'm drinking black coffee, eating lazy breakfast bagels, feet up on a wicker table, watching those glossy tropical leaves, deciding on a sea cure. The beach is cobbled in various sizes of warm stone. Out we wade, into remarkable clarity, mak

To And Fro

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Just before work I am melted to the car seat and watching magpies covet shine. Handsome, indolent heat makes everything such languid effort. Minds are wrestled from drift, only briefly, only for the necessary part of a task. The rest is all dissipation. After work, pull car and steamy skin into a random moorland car park, sit; door open, coffee cold; face to face with a lowing sun. I am fixed in the seat, it seems, much as a chrysalis fixes to a stem: until bare feet wake up, press over the short-stemmed grass.

Hot Flip Flops

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Yesterday's walking took a spell in the river, wading out neck deep, to stand; eye level with a swimming Dog; watching the blip of fish snatching gnats; the linger of centric ripples; under the snaky outcrops of root. The water was invisible: was only the reflection of tree and sky: was only the beads on bared legs. Yesterday's wet clothes sway on the washing line. A dry walk, today, for no particular reason. Heat speeds up molecules: slows a walk. We average an ambling pace, stopping our legs once for strawberry picking, once for rose petals. We dare not be too still though, lest we be baked like terracotta, left decorative but brittle. At home it is pleasant to sit, flip flops kicked off, in the umbrella shadow: a mistake to slip those dark soled sandals back on. Cartoon hopping in hot flip flops wakes the cat, who; of course; has been sleeping all day, content in the shade of a garden table and the cooling roots of grass.

Summer Melt

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The window stays open late: suddenly the room beats with moth wings.  Pale moon creatures, from the backdrop of summer night, fashioned from the same velvet. A cool and soothing brush with darkness; a sleeping draught, a diving bell; respite from the fraught of heat; they bring good dreams, the mesmer of these beating wings. Indoors, outdoors, this world, or that; everything blurs in the summer melt .

Nota Bene

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A thin breeze can't cover this heat. Cat sleeps all day, content in the shade of a garden table and the cooling roots of grass. Dog wanders between shadows, thumps a tail at the darting passage of summer birds. I tip the lounger back to find shelter beneath the sheet drying on the rotary line. How annoyed I am to need to move, or eat, or clean, or earn a living. Annoyed that coffee won't materialise by whim. Yet when I move to simmer noodles and sweep carpets and type words, when I tighten up the espresso pot and hear it bubble on the electric stove? Discernable ritual satisfaction! Back to the laid back lounger I go, chilling my little cup in the thin breeze, under the wash-line shade. Cold strong coffee I have, and the sun on my feet. Everything else will follow.

Sunshiny

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At my brother's wedding: with my deeply lovely sister in law :-)  Slow start to the weekend heat wave. The talk of it is more heated than the weather. The view from my car includes a horizon of convincingly solid cloud. My attention is drawn by the increase in traffic. When I look again at the mountainous cloud, it is invisible. But the Bristol air is hazy, thick full of heat. I have clear sight of it from the tall windows of my brother's first floor flat: single glazed, it won't be so warm in the winter, he notes. We walk over the open common grassland called The Downs. There's an irregular pattern of picnic groups. Pink-faced people rest on benches under young trees. Talking of stereotypes, we walk into The Burger Joint, greeted by a chirpy waitress. Do we want to sit outside, she asks. There is a beautiful cool slate floor indoors. She laughs when we ask for shade, because everyone else is crammed around outside tables. She brings iced drinks,

Gossip From The Cottages

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The rain is dried up, so the field grass needs grabbing, makes the lane busy with rushed tractors. Wobbly trailers shake grass stacks, flurries of stalk fall out over the tarmac: smells rich, fresh, sweet all at once. It'll be like that, till the weather turns or the job's done. Horseflies are biting. Strawberries are cropping, you can pick a handful everyday. Some of them even make it home, but some fall in your mouth. It's how they are. A broody Nextdoor Chicken has hatched one chick. It's set the others off broody now. Everyone has washing out, windows open. Elderflowers are on the turn: season's always over quick. Pick while you can, and never mind the staring. Sometimes a crowd will gather: just curious. It's all just how it is.

The Moby Tree

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Happy Independence Day American cousins: we had a different sort of emancipation going on here today :-)  We walk the hill from crest to trough, then swing left to follow the fertile edges of the drainage ditch. Along here stands a cluster of elder trees. In the summer the trees flower behind a thicket of weeds that grows over boggy ground, weeds that sting, scratch, wrap around limbs. Mr frowns like Ahab at those foam white blossoms. Sometimes the boggish earth will swallow your legs, even before the greenery bites. It's my folly to strike out first, wedging each wellied foot into rootballs of reed. No machete: though we carry a hook pole in a harpoonish manner: a pair of craft scissors snips out the worst of the thorn attackers. We use the pole to slide ourselves off the drainage bank, and sneak along the water path till we can climb up right inside the elusive bounty. Three carrier bags of blossom carried up the hill, from trough to crest, triumphant. 

Industrious Afternoon

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Pinball weather: bouncing from hot to chill. Under the construction of the polytunnel, jumpers are off, regardless. A scarf lollops, gently, in the breeze, the fringe of it slumped from a garden chair. Close by, the rotary line flouts its load, from fast drying fleece to saggy cotton, on poles of a jaunty angle. A sort of mud dust drifts over us. We pull melodrama faces: anyone watching would immediately identify this difficult level of effort. Three bays of awkward Perspex curve up and over inside the frame. It is not rain but time that ends the work. A quick brush of teeth and we are out of the door, armed with kick pads, ready to teach.

Songs In The Rain

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Rain patters the leaves over our heads. Dog runs, on scent based urges, round my general position. Brambles are closing up the path: cotton leggings were a mistake. Everything smells freshly damped, even the river, even the stale quarry pools. On a shale beach a feathered jewel waits for me to admire it. A duck's gift, I think, and carry it home, and it is tucked behind the Buddha figure that lives in my car. Later, after work, instead of driving back through the main street, me, Buddha, the feather, we take the snaky single track under the willow, over the bridge, along the side of the crooked castle. Windscreen wipers clear the view: the day's light stoops under the blanketing night: I couldn't sing any louder no matter how I may try.

Centipede

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Braving a steely humid sky, myself and my neighbour hang out washing. Dog and I go walking, sans coat, through the lanes where the hedges are uncut and they whisper at us all the way round the block. I do not know what they are saying: it seems gossipy. At home a fresh rose opens and is plucked for the teapot. My rose-brewing teapot has a cracked handle from Saturday's shelf disaster. It's not quite broken yet though, it stays in use. I stare at it, to get the most from its presence. Seems like an ordinary day. An ordinary, hot day: in the shower I look for soap and find instead one smallish centipede. Outside, the wind stirs up the clouds, the vegetation, the pegged out washing: and my hair, which dries all unruly.